{"id":7,"date":"2020-04-28T15:46:42","date_gmt":"2020-04-28T15:46:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?page_id=7"},"modified":"2020-04-28T16:19:17","modified_gmt":"2020-04-28T16:19:17","slug":"about","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?page_id=7","title":{"rendered":"WHY AM I DOING THIS?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

12th September 2008. My first post under “Faith of the Heart” (flicking to and between “justgivemeachance” – but more on that later).
I set up the blog when I was 20 years old, about to go to university (for the second time – because I like to do things my<\/em> way…). I’d had an emotional breakup (so clich\u00e9) and I think I knew I was about to embark on a rollercoaster of emotions, and chose to publish that to the entire world wide web rather than my trusty personal<\/em> journal. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skip forward over 200 posts and 6 years later, taking me through my university life and onto a graduate scheme (key milestones in my life at the time), and the blog had turned into a place of ranting and negativity (desperate pleas of “just give me a chance” anyone). My last post was about self sabotage and knowing what’s right and wrong (in yourself). I couldn’t write after that, I felt zapped and exhausted by all the negativity. I carried on like everything was normal, when deep down I knew something wasn’t right. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It felt like for a long time I was in the fog. Or, how I like to describe it as “stuck in a tunnel”. Depression. Ugh, I hate that it has a label. It’s only one word, three syllables but such a magnitude of emotions. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I thought if you tried your hardest, you could ignore it and be like you used to be. But things don’t really work like that. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now, I’d like my blog to be a place which rides all the waves of emotions and comes out the other side smiling. With the occasional rant of course – you can’t change who you are. And that’s okay! <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

12th September 2008. My first post under “Faith of the Heart” (flicking to and between “justgivemeachance” – but more on that later).I set up the blog when I was 20 years old, about to go to university (for the second time – because I like to do things my way…). I’d had an emotional breakup […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/7"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/7\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/7\/revisions\/25"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}