{"id":101,"date":"2020-09-20T17:28:09","date_gmt":"2020-09-20T17:28:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=101"},"modified":"2020-09-20T17:36:16","modified_gmt":"2020-09-20T17:36:16","slug":"mountains-and-molehills","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=101","title":{"rendered":"Mountains and molehills"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>This week something so insignificant really sent me spiralling. I say insignificant because although to <em>me<\/em> it felt enough to throw me into a downward spiral, the reality is that for a bystander it was <strong>something or nothing<\/strong>.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s frustrating recognising yourself spiralling and feeling like you can do absolutely nothing about it. I guess in a way it\u2019s a good sign I can recognise it in myself, and I aren\u2019t oblivious to what is happening. But still, I felt <strong>out of control<\/strong>.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No amount of meditation, journaling, yoga-ing, you name it was able to bring me back.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s cyclical and I know these feelings pass and I\u2019ll feel \u201cnormal\u201d again &#8211; whatever <em>that<\/em> is.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But it\u2019s a horrible feeling &#8211; emotionally and physically. I felt like I was screaming internally for help, but really what could anyone actually have <em>done<\/em>?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It took a few days for the calmness to come back to me, and finally I feel back in control again. Like nothing ever happened.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And that&#8217;s the thing about mental health, it can be unpredictable. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This week something so insignificant really sent me spiralling. I say insignificant because although to me it felt enough to throw me into a downward spiral, the reality is that for a bystander it was something or nothing.&nbsp; It\u2019s frustrating recognising yourself spiralling and feeling like you can do absolutely nothing about it. I guess [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[18],"tags":[82,4,16,20,11],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=101"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":105,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101\/revisions\/105"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=101"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=101"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=101"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}