I\u2019m lost at the moment. Lost somewhere in between the monotony of daily life (aka the \u201cnew normal\u201d), life as I used to know it, and hopes for the future. I feel I\u2019m somewhere along a continuum. There\u2019s hope at one side and despair at the other side.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I try to pep talk myself because I know I don\u2019t have it as bad as some people, but still, it feels enough<\/em> for me. Unsustainable. Like I might break or shatter at any moment – and often I do, in the form of tears. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And I know it\u2019s okay, because life is a journey – they say you have to take the rough with the smooth, life is full of bumps in the road. But that doesn\u2019t make it any easier to handle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m getting better at talking; about acknowledging how I am feeling and if I don\u2019t think I am coping that well. But then this week I heard the most infuriating thing – to check in with how people are really<\/em> feeling would be overkill<\/strong> and a box ticking exercise<\/strong>. Oh, and if you ask someone how they really are feeling they will drag you down with them. And there was me thinking \u201cit\u2019s okay not to be okay\u201d. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For me, I will continue to try<\/em> being more open. I say try because it\u2019s still hard, there\u2019s a certain element of vulnerability that I will never be able to shift. But, I will always be receptive to other people\u2019s openness and honesty. <\/p>\n\n\n\n If there\u2019s one thing I have learnt, it\u2019s that articulating thoughts and feelings – whether written or spoken – always helps you see the light. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I\u2019m lost at the moment. Lost somewhere in between the monotony of daily life (aka the \u201cnew normal\u201d), life as I used to know it, and hopes for the future. I feel I\u2019m somewhere along a continuum. There\u2019s hope at one side and despair at the other side. I try to pep talk myself because […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[18,58],"tags":[25,24,27,23,33,29,4,16,20,64,28,3,14,43,42],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/110"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=110"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/110\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=110"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=110"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=110"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}