{"id":128,"date":"2021-10-10T09:39:53","date_gmt":"2021-10-10T09:39:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=128"},"modified":"2021-10-10T09:39:53","modified_gmt":"2021-10-10T09:39:53","slug":"i-wonder-if-ill-ever-be-enough","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=128","title":{"rendered":"I wonder if I’ll ever be enough"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

A common thought amongst most people – a sweeping statement but nethertheless I’d say true. We spend our lives striving for wealth, for greatness, to have a roaring career, be in the best shape, pushing ourselves to be the epitome of success. But what really<\/strong> does that mean?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I definitely feel I’ve spend my life, all 33 years of it thus far, trying to be better<\/em>. The best version of myself – be it pushing my body beyonds its limits, micro controlling my diet, burning myself out through overwork to prove I’m worthy and capable, relentlessly cleaning my house like it’s a palatial show room and not a lived in home<\/em>. But for who? For what purpose? And most importantly why<\/strong>?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Am I doing all of these things for myself? Am I really that satisfied? Will I ever be satisfied? Will I ever truly be happy and content? Am I enough for myself? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Through talking therapy this year we discussed expectations and pressures – mainly put on myself, by myself<\/em>, from the idea of what I “should” be doing, and what defines being successful. Even though I realised comparison was the thief of joy<\/span>, here I am 6+ months later still unable to change my habits and thought cycles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But I know better<\/strong>. I know that if nothing changes then nothing<\/em> changes<\/em>. It’s something I hear myself profess to other people, so why is it so hard to practice what I preach? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Perhaps that’s the point though – it’s practice, and without commitment to the cause, I’ll always be in the same vicious, draining cycle. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

A common thought amongst most people – a sweeping statement but nethertheless I’d say true. We spend our lives striving for wealth, for greatness, to have a roaring career, be in the best shape, pushing ourselves to be the epitome of success. But what really does that mean? I definitely feel I’ve spend my life, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[18,58],"tags":[21,54,47,23,33,29,4,16,20,3,14,42],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/128"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=128"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/128\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":129,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/128\/revisions\/129"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=128"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=128"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=128"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}