{"id":89,"date":"2020-08-16T17:15:20","date_gmt":"2020-08-16T17:15:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=89"},"modified":"2020-08-16T17:16:11","modified_gmt":"2020-08-16T17:16:11","slug":"inaccessible-thoughts-and-the-insufferable-heat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=89","title":{"rendered":"Inaccessible thoughts and the insufferable heat"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>At risk of a repetition of last week, my gosh this week has been <strong>hard<\/strong>. A real <em>slog<\/em>. And not for any particular reason, although I think the extreme heat hasn\u2019t helped. I\u2019ve really struggled to connect to my mind. That sounds absolutely insane &#8211; and not a thing &#8211; but let me explain.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I always have a million and one thoughts whizzing through my mind &#8211; a trait I know a lot of people endure. But this last week it\u2019s like I\u2019ve not been able to isolate or process any or all of my thoughts. It\u2019s almost asif there\u2019s an invisible wall or some other obstruction that is preventing me from accessing my mind.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s frustrating because I feel <strong>dumb<\/strong>. I can\u2019t articulate myself; my thoughts, my feelings, my opinions. I suffer a lot with what I call \u201cword salad\u201d, where my mind often processes things faster than I\u2019m able to speak and my words can sometimes get jumbled up. I take a deep breathe, think for a second, and then start again. It\u2019s a simple solution and common advice &#8211; <em>slow down<\/em>.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Word salad aside, this feels like something different (and extreme) altogether &#8211; have I literally <em>lost<\/em> my mind?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I think the obvious answer is a resounding no &#8211; I\u2019m still functioning. I can still speak, eat, walk, think (well I\u2019m still having vivid dreams so clearly my brain <strong>is<\/strong> working), <em>etc<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In true detective style, I feel like this is a case of needing some rest. Some RnR. Quiet, calm restfulness.&nbsp; A mythical concept I find so difficult yet understand the benefits all too well.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Here\u2019s hoping that with some downtime I can be connected once again.&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>At risk of a repetition of last week, my gosh this week has been hard. A real slog. And not for any particular reason, although I think the extreme heat hasn\u2019t helped. I\u2019ve really struggled to connect to my mind. That sounds absolutely insane &#8211; and not a thing &#8211; but let me explain.\u00a0 I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[22,13],"tags":[52,67,64,69,68],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/89"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=89"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/89\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":92,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/89\/revisions\/92"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=89"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=89"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=89"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}