{"id":94,"date":"2020-08-31T20:12:10","date_gmt":"2020-08-31T20:12:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=94"},"modified":"2020-08-31T20:12:10","modified_gmt":"2020-08-31T20:12:10","slug":"the-glory-days-and-yearnings-of-calm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/faithoftheheart.co.uk\/?p=94","title":{"rendered":"The glory days and yearnings of calm"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I always used to mock people who would begin sentences with \u201cback in my day\u201d – and I guess I probably still would have a giggle and\/or an eye roll. But, after a week of annual leave and a bank holiday (or 10 blissful days of deliciously sweet freedom) I have the blues. A bad, bad<\/em> case of craving for those days when I didn\u2019t have a care in the world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Waaaay before my university days (because I was anxious as hell back then too). I\u2019m talking carefree school goer (not GCSE years as I was a panicker then as well). Those years in your life where you don\u2019t know what a worry is, let alone spend all your time consumed by them. That\u2019s what I crave right now. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

There\u2019s something about a night before going back to work – whether it be Sunday night blues (aka weekend come down – in a non narcotic sense, but whatever floats your boat) or post annual leave return. The anxiety is real<\/strong>. And it\u2019s not even as if it\u2019s the fear of the unknown because the reality is you\u2019re 99% sure you know what you\u2019re going back to. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve realised it\u2019s the physical act of going back – it\u2019s strange because I\u2019m a creature of habit, I crave<\/em> routine. A sense of normality makes me feel, well, normal. And grounded. And me. And in control. But the transition between personal time and work time is something I really struggle with. I know it\u2019s a delicate balancing act – you need enough of one and the other. But there\u2019s something about the night before going back to work that fills me with a kind of dread and uncertainty. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know that experience counts for a lot and as you get older you learn to ride the waves. I\u2019ve come to recognise when I\u2019m feeling like this and have a routine in place (naturally): yin yoga, bath, meditation, and journaling. But in some ways I wish I could skip back to those calmer days. Or skip forward, but I know that\u2019s wishing my life away. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know the advice banded around is always to take things one step at a time. And although clich\u00e9, it\u2019s pretty solid advice. I do have to laugh and wonder if I\u2019ll look back in a few years\u2019 (or decades\u2019) time and yearn for these days. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

We got this. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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